The last lap. Yep. Higher Chinese Paper 2 Comprehension Exam. Gosh. So fast. After 4 years, this is the end of the exam that is gonna test us on everything, every single thing that we had learnt. But somehow, im not looking forward. True, im looking forward to the bowling after the exam, the movies and kbox, my guitar and computer games, but im still burdened by the fact that my fate is going to be decided in a few more weeks. PANIC.
Ok, so after what my mum told me yesterday, i should really think of what i gonna do in the future, if i didnt manage to get into JC, that will be a super hard impact. To be crude, people who gets retained in normal schools are deemed, normal. People who gets retained in schools that have very good reputations, that is news. Considering...my results isnt very bad in primary school. How am i gonna face my friends, my teachers, my ex-teachers? There is supposedly a p6 class gathering that we gonna arrange after　O levels. Imagine when we talk to each other about where we are going, "Oh, im going this poly, Oh im going that jc." Then they ask, "Randy, where are u going?". Then im going to say, "im taking Secondary 4 again." How am i going to face Ms Chua, who taught me for 4 years, and we are going to visit her somedays?
Ok, so lets assume i did badly for this exam. Retained, no results. Im considering signing up for the police force. Yup. Inspiration from the TV shows, and 4 years in NPCC.
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I really dont want to curse myself. Just that i really do not want to give myself false hopes. Many people will say that i keep saying i fail, and i excel in the exams. Dotz. Im really worried. If u do not know.
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So, today we played soccer from 9am to 12+pm today. Tired seh. Leg damn pain for no reason. Argh.